Friday, April 9, 2010

what's ahead

how long do you have to wait
how long do you have to stay
how far can you go
how much can you lose
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how long are you willing
to wait
to stay
how far are you willing to go
how much are you willing to lose

*and you have a preview to how the bad cop and the good cop within me work.
it can get better than that at times
*

~***~
The walk through the mangrove swamp on this small stretch of bridge and out to the beach was somewhat scary and creepy.

The other day i was wondering why we can't just rewind back to many years ago. then i realized i need to do myself some good and stop thinking about this rewinding thingy. well, for some obvious reasons, of course.

School was boring today. Ok, probably because there's nothing much going on after a week of monthly tests and i didn't do much to get anything going anyway. whatever. And probably because i had a bad week marking papers, balancing on the fine line that separates strict and lenient.

Great. There's school tomorrow, following the Friday timetable. I'll be starting the chapter on Land and Its Resources, which is about some geology stuff i learnt during uni days. Oh my, I have returned most of what i learnt to the lecturers. oh crap.

I am only returning the papers next week. Many students came to me and asked me about their math paper results. A handful of them did brilliantly well compared to their peers, and I am truly happy about that. Some, they came because they want to know the mistakes they did. They listened, and their light bulbs were lighted. They understood the reason they got low marks or failed the paper. Some, they came but are just plainly blinded by their own weaknesses in the subject (not only math) and yet still want to plead for marks which i can't and won't give. They are not interested in knowing their weaknesses and mistakes. They are only interested in getting a pass for the paper, or higher marks. One girl got 22 out of 50, which is equivalent to 44%, one more mark to pass the paper. She came to see me twice to beg for that 1% so that she can have a pass for math paper after failing it in the Feb test. I will never give her that one mark because she simply doesn't deserve it. She wouldn't get an E for math if only she had paid attention during lessons and 'repent' from the sins in doing math. Of course, there some who prefer to just wait til the day the teacher returns the papers to them, which is what i will do if i'm a student. gah.

Bio - i expected to get that kind of results because clearly, language is a problem to them. The students, not just students from my class, have problem understanding simple instructions like 'explain using an example of carbohydrate', 'factors affecting permeability of plasma membrane', 'precautionary steps in administering injection', etc. I marked their papers with a pretty merciful heart where i tried to understand their explanation and marks were given as long as they hit the point. A few from my class did quite well because they are the ones who pay attention during class and work hard to understand; and of course there is about 4 or 5 of them who totally flunked the paper and you can predict what kind of behavior they have during classes. I don't like to see students failing their papers, particularly the subject i love and teach. haha. But I must applaud one of the boys. He is really weak in english. I mean 'really' weak. His english is somewhere in primary school level and i was fearing that he will hand in just the question paper with no answers. Oh well, he answered the questions although not all. He passed the paper, even though with an E. In upper secondary level, E is still a pass, but not G. Oh there's another boy whom i need to constantly call his name during classes so that he won't go too deep in his dream land -- he got a B. That was a surprise to me. ;)

Science -- gah, if this kind of results came out for PMR.. i might be skinned alive.

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