back in Ipoh!

After 12 hours of traveling with a good one hour break in Coffee Bean with ajw, finally i reached home at about 6.30pm yesterday. And the Ipoh air smells really good! *screams and jumps like a mad fellar*

It's so good to see tall buildings, wide highways, normal cars, etc etc etc. Like what i told some of them -- the feeling of reconnecting with 'civilisation' is beyond description. No offense when i mentioned the word civilisation. haha. until now i am still trying to explain to my self what exactly i am feeling at this point of time. When i was in the bus going back from the airport -- it's like my heart was shouting

'
this is where i belonged to ....

i am supposed to live a few years of my life in a place like this..

and not spending them in a faraway land without this, without that .....'

*ok, i think i was possessed and taken over by the insane jiaaaa when those lines came out from the brain cells* please try to understand how pissed i can get at times.

anyway, i am glad that another quarter of the year is gone. thank God. a few more months to go and i will be done with my year one in that freaky place. i took pictures of the toilet in my flat and i shall show you all some time later.

half a year -- i realised some things.....

1. how big the gap between this side of the world and that side of the world is.
2. i am not altruistic and i cannot be like that.
3. at times, i couldn't care less.
4. i chose to go for posting and that's why i ended up there.
5. i think too highly of my self. i don't think i can be what i wanted to be or do what i wanted to do.
6. i am slowly giving up.
7. i want to do something else. seriously.

Ok, probably the above are reasons why teachers get to have a long mid year break and a long year end break. hahaha :P

buzz off, bugs!

jia's going to free herself from the terrible-horrible-vegetable place for 3 weeks, starting this Saturday morning.

and i seriously can't wait!!

the house always has all kinds of insects-attack.. my gosh.. perhaps i should take pictures of how the tiny blackie bugs will cover the floor, the ceiling, the dining table.. *eeeeewwww* you can also find the darn stinking bugs that are seriously super stinky. garh.

The cockroach-attacks are crazy because they FLY! oh my gawd.. the cockroach in MC didn't fly that much. But the LD cockroaches are scary. There was once I sprayed Ridsect to it and it decided to commit kamikaze and flew TOWARDS me. Good thing i was fast and bent down on time.. sheeeshh.. of course, in the end it [has to] died.

i am ready to pack.

i am ready to go home.

hehe.

The exam results -- maths was ok. science wasn't good. biology was terrible. whatever.

and i just want to get away from this place!

;)

we all know

how it feels

to be neither here nor there.

life

this is Lahad Datu.

it was taken a few months ago on a Sunday morning.

One of the rare chances of bringing the camera out to town.
When I was walking around the shop lots, there's this little girl sleeping at the pavement.
i was kind of stunned at the moment i saw her lying there.
and i was thinking whether to take a picture of her or not.
but in the end i decided to quietly walk away.
***

this is Tawau wet market.
I went there for the first time with a few of my colleagues during the March school break.
And I was there again on Labour Day with some church friends.
***

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move

I'm hanging by a moment here with you
****

i am dying to get stuck in a congested traffic.
;)

you crossed my mind.

freaking bengang at times.

And so jia set some pretty unrealistic goals for her students for the mid year exam.

Science - no one should get less than a B, with exceptions for some of them where a C is good enough.

Bio - at least a D. each of them has been given a minimum grade which they must try to achieve. If they got it, of course they will be rewarded in the form of nestle drumstick.

Maths - at least a C. those who get less than that will be rotan-ed. i am sure i have ample time to learn how to properly hold the rotan and strike their palms. oh by the way, after the April test i have been given the authority to punish the students from my classes - those who didn't do well in their maths papers.

when you talk so much about a certain thing --
you either love it so much,
or hate it to the max.

sometimes i wondered what went wrong with their gray matter.

it took her so long to give me the answer of 4 + 1/2.

she counted her fingers for so many times to give me the answer 0f -2 + 11.

what am I supposed to do? teach them the primary kids' stuff?

i felt so intellectually challenged to teach them. *sorry, i am not being mean, ok* but seriously, i am intellectually challenged because i need to come out with ways to help them to understand. sometimes i really wondered if it's my fault that they don't understand what i taught. but then how come more than half of them know what i am talking about while that particular handful of them don't?

i am worried that they won't do well in the exam. when i set the papers last week, i thought that those questions are pretty easy and 'friendly'.. sigh.. but then after all the printing and stapling is done, i read through the papers again and started to feel one-kind about the questions.. they aren't that easy and 'friendly' afterall... whateverlar :|

lately, there are a few freaky spooky stories about the school and the hostel. it sends chill down my spine at times... garrrhh..

weekend is coming soon. another week nearer to home. ;)

thoughts.

one week nearer to home.

happy.

can't wait.

mid year exam.

hope the students can do better.

a lot of papers to mark.

have to settle the border pass thingy.

guru bertugas for the week.

have to be in school by 6 and stay til 4.

crazy thoughts.

need to pamper myself with Ipoh.

:)

regrets.

it's been a year...

it's just one of the days that i remembered how it feels to be up there again.
the walk. the drive.
the time spent sitting by the roadside waiting for the sun to set.

but i doubt you remember them.
you drove away, turned at the corner
and disappeared from my sight,
my life.

and we pretend that nothing happened.
Nothing.
*****

what am I supposed to do?

别让遗憾继续
"let not your regrets carry on"

i saw you

"Maybe I'm dreaming you.
Maybe you're dreaming me;
maybe we only exist in each other's dreams
and
every morning when we wake up
we forget all about each other."
— The Time Traveler's Wife


once in a while
you would find me here.

i need a break

i am sitting in my living room and i can hear the water dripping from the sewage pipe high above the toilet bowl *slightly to the left* into the pail.

*drip... drip... drip....*

One of my colleagues - she has an umbrella opened in the toilet so that the water will not drip straight on her body. I don't know how she secured the umbrella but soon i will need to find out from her. gosh man. what kind of teachers' quarters am i staying in??!

sigh.

It's my 5th month and i am finally down with runny nose and sore throat. probably due to the tiring one day trip and not having enough rest. the good thing is i managed to get the Math mid year exam objective and subjective papers done and sent it for printing this afternoon. thank You, God. Now i am giving a final touch to the Science objective papers.

I didn't know Harry Connick Jr. can be so gaya but to me, he is still the Daniel in PS I Love You. *this is random*

Sorry but I need to complain about teaching maths again *BORING* Now we have started with Geometrical Constructions. My god, it's another torturing class, not to mention me having sore throat and runny nose. They can't even understand simple instructions on how to construct the freaking triangles and perpendicular bisector. grrrhh.

3 more weeks and i will be home for about 3 weeks. i need to finish marking all the papers before i leave for home. hehe. and i can't wait!!!!

this coming week.

One day trip is always tiring.

Now i am still dead tired and having a bad headache.

I went to Tawau *again*, went to the wet market *again* and Giant *again*.

This week is going to be a crazy week. I have to get ready the exam papers. There's school replacement this saturday and the freaking terrible thing is it seems like we are going to have Gotong-royong on Sunday. So basically i will be working 7 days this week. crazy people.

sigh.
jimo-fimo-finding-nemo.