More than words

Ms. Panjang with the sunflowers. =)

Saw the african daisies?


J.CO donut. African daisies.

Cantik, kan?


Mama Rachel with the daughter, Panjang. and sunflowers! and African daisies!!

Zach, the 'bro'.

i dunno how to tell..
there's a lot of things on my mind.
i am really proud of you
and i thank God for having
such a bestest friend like you.
=)

Teehee.. i am bad at 'recording stealthily' =)

*edited 1st June, 8.45pm

Today...

sleepy giler.
no board games.
proud of my sense of direction. *bleh*
had a long day.
but it's a happy day! =)

Thursday...
A lesson by roomie on taking public transport.
MC to Pasar Seni to Selayang, back to KL and back to MC.
African daisies memang cantik. Arrhh, hope we can get the purple one for you, the brat@stubborn donkey/monkey@panjang! =)
I know why the bus was so darn freaking slow.
Slow or fast, it's a relative thing.
The physical body was trying giler hard to catch up
with the heart and mind which already flew super far ahead of it.
*stupid bus, why can't you just beat the stupid red light and drive a little wee bit faster????!! =p*
Ok la, at least we reached selayang safe and sound
despite the bumps and berpusing-pusingan in the tamans.
And.. bumming in Rachel's Happy Mansion with Chian Ming was fun! =)

Wednesday...
HE holds my every moment.
HE calms my raging seas.
And I know everything will be ok.

Tuesday...
Super long story.

Monday...
Lesson learned ~ Our life is in God's hands.

thank you for the call,
and messages
and prayers
and kisses
and hugs

***

Tomorrow is Saturday. The day after tomorrow is Sunday.
The day after the-day-after-tmrow is Monday...
Another week has come and gone... =p

i'll remember

this day.
this moment.

i miss you dearly

ipoh=home

Big Apple Donut in Ipoh!!!!

cekap donuts!!!!
***
Dee dumm..
Random pictures with my bro! =)

Ah Boy is a nice boy. Washes my makan plates, do this and that for me.. Teehee.. my slave whenever I am back home.. lala.. Eh, I drive him here and there, okay.....

Ah Boy is also a vain boy.... =)*bleh =p *

expectations.

yeah. finally i can be away from PJ/KL for a few days. *beaming*
**
The card and the dustbin.
He picked it up and wrote J a new one.
He wants J to move on.
So do I.
**

Who is disillusioned? J! Expectations. He broke many of my expectations of how things should be, of how I should be, of how He should be. I know this breaking and mending will continue. Until the day I have no more finite expectations of Him. Until the day I learn not to limit His working in my life... That I don't know when.
**
I am pressing on. Give me some time.

Today is..

my dad's birthday!!!
This is last year's bday pic.. teehee..

Yo, my dad is the cutest (not just because he is not very tall),
the most cekap,
the most patient (but not during working hours),
the best cook,
the greatest man in my life!!!!

I miss the time when we used to play badminton in the evenings.
I like him fetching me around on his kap-chai bike,
from old Honda bike AAG to ACV to the present ADQ.
I like to drive him around.
I admire him for his love and dedication for the family and his work in the restaurant,
no matter how tough it is,
no matter what kind of treatment he receives.
Haha, and he is always on time. Serious.
Cekap giler!

my dad is my hero!!!

and my mum?
my mum is my heroine!!!
she is a cekap mum!
She can sew, she can fix stuff, etc
she is another best cook!
(so i have two best cooks in the family, and therefore i don't cook, you see)
I admire her for being the woman behind the man.
(i know it's kind of a gender bias stuff, but anywayz...)
She is an English-ed who learned chinese
coz she is married to a chinaman who cooks.
(and her written chinese is giler funny)
I admire her for her endurance and perseverance and patience,
not matter how difficult life has been for her.
She is also always on time!
(see, it's in my genes)

i love'em!
just wish that i could tell them this directly
=)

words.

a thicket of sin. an altar of sacrifices. what is your choice?
**
giving up. holding on. letting go.
**
a lovely card that was thrown into a dustbin. He was grieved.

so was I.

I'm back in my little room...

from Cameron Highlands!!!

Wow, it was a great trip.. to go there and just lepak-ing around with roomie-with-a-500-price-tag-on-her-head and the giler photographer. We went there.. to eat, sleep, walk around, .. and more eating.. more sleeping.. T-cafe and more T-cafe.. Pancakes, steamboat, lamb chop, drink tea.. nice breakfast, my sunny-side-up.. Took pictures.. Not so much of walking.. the furthest we went was MARDI.. mini tea plantation in MARDI instead of going all the way to Sg Palas or the one at Habu.. Haha.. I think we spent the most time lepak-ing on our beds and talking and more talking. Oh well, we ended up jimo-ing in our room. Any juicy news? Neh.... *jimo = jiwang + emo, created by J on 7/5/08 night, location: Tanah Rata* =)

Arr.. there's so many things on my mind. It was a good trip for me. A time for myself to look into some things... A time to slap myself awake. Wake up, J!!!!
We passed by Lakeview Chalets. Camp Cam 08 starts on Monday. Argh, I miss my 3 weeks there! So much has happened in these 2 years. Good and bad. Happy and sad. Awww.... =)

This is taken in MARDI. AJ, the giler photographer and Suitlin, the roomie.

Thank God for a safe trip. Nice room. Good food!! And wonderful, cekap company!!!! We had a giler time bullying and torturing the poor girl who survived dengue fever. Hehe..

We rolled her up using the blanket. Ahahaha..

=) muackzz!!!

Wow!!!

Came back from work. It was quite fun la. Haha. =)
Wow.. I was going through my usual online activities.. jigsaw puzzle on National Geographic Magazine website.. Just now, I was looking through the cekap photos from the jigsaw puzzle generator.. I was clicking here and there, waiting for the page to load..

the page changed and at that split second,
from the corner of my eyes, I saw this picture which looks soooooo familiar!
I quickly went back to the previous page..

I was like, "Oh my gosh!! It's AJW's red ant!!!!
And so, I went to the Daily dozen...
Wahliao.. it's really the ant pic!!!!

Photo and caption by Adelene Joyce William!!!

Haha.. It's fun.. and amazing.. and interesting.. and exciting
to do a jigsaw puzzle of an ant taken by your friend! =)

Quoting from this giler photographer..

"aiyah..you digital zoom 2x,
go look for ants, be patient, then you click =p"

You rockz wei!!

KDO, go far far away!

Ah, finally exam is over. =)

Allow me to rant.. although it's already over. Last paper syndrome. I can't really understand and remember what I have read over the past few days. The notes is the best sleeping pills. Tiny font, all words are squeezed into a small rectangular box. 6 boxes per page. One-of-a-kind BM sentences (just like the Pengenalan kepada Gender notes). Every time I sit down and read, I would find myself staring at the same box after a super long time, or staring at the same page after N hours. Darn! Introducing to you, my last paper.. PDET 4101 Kepimpinan Diri dan Organisasi.. I tell you.. this is the worst paper among the 3 that require me to write like a mad fella. Biochem and geology are way much better than this, at least I know why and what I am writing in the answer scripts. The KDO paper (the whole course la) is boring, crappy, time-wasting.. argh.. It's like, this was my first time sitting in the exam hall, daydream-ed for a while, a bit lost.. 20 marks per questions, answer 3 out of 4. *fainted*

I looked at question 1a, perbezaan antara pengurusan dan kepimpinan.
On my mind, "Die, what is this... how to do.. how to do.. sei sei sei.. need to write TWO perbezaan somemore and I only know one... See la, the consequences of daydreaming in class!"

Question 2.... Question 3.... how to tell stories that worth 20 marks??? I can do that in Gender paper because there's substance in it. Sigh. Not like this paper.
"Die la, J... can remember or not?"

"Haiyo, thank God I can remember wei. Just write la.
Don't care what scenario thingy d.. just write.."

"Sure ar?"

"Stop wasting time d... write!!"

I looked at the people sitting opposite me, in front of me, left and right of me.. they wrote, wrote, wrote and kept writing.. Oh well, seeing them writing with such semangat did push me to write a little bit more, and write with a little bit nicer handwriting.. whatever.. I got sooooo tired of writing.. and some of the words, haha.. I just 'drew' the words with my terrible handwriting.. neh... habis wei.. haha.. =)

Anywayz, it's over. Haha.. and the Monday continued with cekap time celebrating KeeAun's bday in MV and The Curve... honked by more than 50 cars, Carl's Jr, bowling, daytona, Dome, walking passed Laundry Bar.. this and that.. and pengsan on the bed until today.. woke up at the right time for my usual lunch break. Pengsan on the bed again after that...

Alrightz, I got to go. Work!! =) Rajin giler.... *yeah right*

Hehe.. Cameron Highlands, here I come!!!!

i know

You can't turn back the clock
once you make a wrong move...

accept your responsibility to it...
...and tell yourself to let go

You can make the right choice...
yupz! you can do it!!!

****
=)

Teach me, O LORD, to follow your decrees;
then I will keep them to the end.
Give me understanding, and I will keep your law
and obey it with all my heart.
Direct me in the path of your commands,
for there I find delight.
Turn my heart toward your statutes
and not toward selfish gain.

Turn my eyes away from worthless things;
preserve my life according to your word.
Ps119:33-37

think happy thoughts =)
be thankful =)
*cheers* =)

hot weather..

dee dum..
enough of lamenting and complaining..
it's time to go back to the notes.. sheeesh..

enough.

I am feeling extremely bored. to the max. cis..

For the first time in my entire student life.. I went to study in KFC. *can you imagine J doing that?* Blame it to the darn hot weather.. sheeesh..
Spent almost 8 hours in KFC. read a few pages of slides typed in tiny font size. Starbucks coffee is giler cekap. Colbie Caillait's Bubbly drove us one-of-a-kind. Mr. Potato and some funkees junk food advertisements are giler hilarious and crappy. Back to the room at 3. slept at 6. woke up at 11.20. online jigsaw puzzle all the way. KDO notes is nonsense. continued with lewis' and cook's songs. feeling stoned. confused. disappointed. lost. stuck. dead. alive. happy. sad. had enough. want to move on. you either do something. or just shut up and stop all this darn stuff.

what's wrong with you?

i failed you
again

..a sense of insecurity,
lurking somewhere here and there..

i need to grab hold of something,
to have something significant in life
to feed that insecurity.

i look within and without
but the search has left me
broken like glass.

who would wipe away those tears?
who would chase away those fears?

do you hear my pain?
would you shelter me from rain?