你

你　你说有时候　你只想坐着　陪在我左右
你　你说有时候　我的温柔　擦亮了一整片夜空

你　你笑了起来　我的风帆　听见大海
你　你沉默起来　我的伤感　扬起狂乱的尘埃

若　若只剩下一首歌的时间
想　想牵你的手　轻轻唱着

来　来到我身边　很多的眼泪　我们不能明白
来　来到你身边　很多的爱
想要　对你全都说完　不留遗憾

若　若只剩下一首歌的时间
想　想牵你的手　轻轻唱着

来　来到我身边　很多的眼泪　我们不能明白
来　来到你身边　很多的爱
想要　对你全都说完　不留遗憾

我们的身边　生命去又来　谁也不能主宰
在　我们的身边　交换的爱
才让　生命超脱时间　继续循环

我　我沉默起来　好像就不管　所有的困难
我　我笑了起来　有你陪伴

如果我们只剩一首歌的时间 - 何韵诗

#14

There was a day that I could sit face to face with you
Now that I'm away, I can't sleep the night through
Remember the time in your kitchen with wine
Dancing to the tunes of our blues

I'm going out, I'm gonna make a name for me and you
They can never say I never cared for you
'cause it's just not true

I know your vices and those are your choices
and I want to be there for you
This blaze of sunrise is burning in my eyes
And I want them to burn here with you

I do

I'm going out, I'm gonna make a name for me and you
They can never say I never cared for you
'cause it's just not true

I tried my best just to hide this away
but the earth cracks hard in Californ-i-a
and the earthquakes are giving me away

It's just not true, 'cause I care for you

- Make A Name for Me and You, Rachael Cantu

that place

where you can't remember and you can't forget.

that place where our eyes met for a moment.

are you in the christmas-jimo mood?

But it don't snow here
It stays pretty green

...
i am going to make a lot of money
Then I'm going to quit this crazy scene
....

I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
I wish I had a river so long
I would teach my feet to fly
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
~River, Joni Mitchell~

pa rum pa pum pum....

welcome back, jia!

show no fear

It's time to make a start
to get to know your heart
time to show your face, time to take your place

In every speck of dust
In every universe,
When you feel most alone, you will not be alone

Just shine a light on me, shine a light
I'll shine a light on you, shine a light
and you will see my shadow on every wall
and you will see my footprint on every floor

It only takes a spark to tear the world apart
these tiny little things that make it all begin

Just shine a light on me, shine a light
I'll shine a light on you, shine a light
and you will see my shadow on every wall
and you'll see my reflection in your free fall

Just shine a light on me, shine a light
I'll shine a light on you, shine a light
'Cause when your back's against the wall
that's when you show no fear at all
and when you're running out of time
that's when your hitch your star to mine

We won't be leaving by the same road that we came by
~My Shadow, Keane~

****

Live. I don't know, I think you're either born simple or you're born... me. I wanna be the person who gets happy over finding the perfect dress, I wanna be simple 'cause no one holds a gun to the head of a simple girl.

~C. Yang~

year 1

so let's break free from all these chains of misery

that we have laid down upon ourselves in history and let's break free

~Jack Savoretti, Breaking News~

image taken from here.





year 1: done.

you have no idea

i don't need your sympathy.

for a second,

and lay it all out like a weather chart.

pretense

adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarnya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu
kau juga merindui aku

apabila kau merenung matanya
ku rebah,
jatuh ke bumi
di saat kau benar-benar mahu pergi,
seperti ku bernafas dalam air
~Yuna~

contradictions

You only know what I want you to
I know everything you don't want me to
Oh your mouth is poison, your mouth is wine
Oh you think your dreams are the same as mine
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
I always will

I wish you'd hold me when I turn my back
The less I give the more I get back
Oh your hands can heal, your hands can bruise
I don't have a choice but I still choose you
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
I always will
I always will
I always will
I always will
I always will
-Poison and Wine, by The Civil Wars-

invasion

you invaded my thoughts.

Ready, or not
I hear a clock tock-ticking away
Though I'd ask for those hands to stay in place
And time, my friend
I see your face hard traveling, beside mine
Etched a line
A crease I find when my smile fades

And all you really want is so clear
And all you really want is so near you
Well maybe what you want is right here

So ready, or not, I found a clock that I'd hid away
And I looked it straight in the face, this time
And time, my friend
I'll know your face through every bend of the way
I'll ask you to stay and lend me your hand

And all you want is everything beautiful
And all you want is every little thing
Everything little dream you had
All you want is everything beautiful
And all you want is one day, one day

So ready or not
I hear the calm tock-tick of a clock
A friend the whole way
- Everything, All At Once by Correatown-

you and me,
we just need that one day
of indescribable beauty for two souls.

let's trade shoes

i guess we would have to walk a mile
in each others shoes at least
What size you wear? I wear 10's
Let's see if you can fit your feet

In my shoes, just to see
what it's like, to be me
i'll be you, let's trade shoes
just to see what it'd be like

to feel your pain, you feel mine
go inside each others mind
just to see what we'd find
look at shit through each others eyes
-Beautiful, Eminem-

*

36 to go. the counting down and complaining make me look like some kind of ungrateful idiots. haha. there's nothing much in school, except covering the work left behind by some people, doing some revision with the math classes, marking papers.. planning for the hospital visitation in November. Math revision has been super disastrous.

treat them with as much respect as you can muster,
teach with as much passion as you can find.
- shen -

i'm trying my best.
they make me feel like i'm a big time failure. yeah, i think that's the word for the year.

*
old pictures of you and me
when we were young and were free

my laptop died and resurrected for the second time. everything within it is gone. gone. i don't even want to describe how angry, how frustrated i am. sigh.

i need something to keep my sanity.

supermagicsmiles

there was a lot of super-magic-smiles flashed around
throughout the Good Ipoh Food Trip.

***

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for a while
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are
-Bruno Mars-

a good man in a storm

Open your eyes now

it's time to see if you can reach me

open your eyes now

it's time to leave me... it's time to see

if you still believe in me

open your life now
i'll try to be all that you need me to be

open your eyes now
and try to speak like you can see me

open your eyes now

i'll try to be almost everything you need me to be

she'll be a star now
i will follow her lead

she'll be a scar now

i will still let her bleed all over me

Open Your Eyes, Andrew Belle

*****

I was raised to be a good man in a storm.
Raised to love my country, love my family
and protect the things I love.
~Arizona R.~

that thought.

And all that I could find was a thin line between
All the saints and villains
It was crossed in my own minds

Struggling between the facts and fiction
I’m alone but I'm alive

Everyone around me is trying to make a statement,

then there's me

I’m just trying to survive.

~disarray~
don't mess with me.

where the rain won't hurt

when i lose myself i'll think of you

together we'll be running somewhere new

through the monsoon

just me and you.

my rainbows

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high,
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue,
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.

Someday I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far
Behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly.
Birds fly over the rainbow.
Why then, oh why can't I?

If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I?

******

you were running a good race. who cut in on you and kept you from obeying the truth?
Gal 5:7

******
i need that ounce of courage and confidence to decide.
to action.
to not look back and regret.

life

this is Lahad Datu.

it was taken a few months ago on a Sunday morning.

One of the rare chances of bringing the camera out to town.
When I was walking around the shop lots, there's this little girl sleeping at the pavement.
i was kind of stunned at the moment i saw her lying there.
and i was thinking whether to take a picture of her or not.
but in the end i decided to quietly walk away.
***

this is Tawau wet market.
I went there for the first time with a few of my colleagues during the March school break.
And I was there again on Labour Day with some church friends.
***

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move

I'm hanging by a moment here with you
****

i am dying to get stuck in a congested traffic.
;)

#3

choose this day how you want to live.

i'm weighing my things...

the limit of check-in baggage is 20kg for MAS and 15kg for Air Asia. mine now is about 17kg after weighing the luggage and every smaller bags of things, one by one. hmmm, i don't know whether i'm flying by MAS or AA....

not bringing my laptop but bringing 450D. the backpack should be ok, plus the camera bag.

there is a new jimo song by Leona Lewis called Happy.


Bleeding Love topped my chart for the past 2 years and the play count in my laptop alone is reaching 1000... not including the times when i played from on my MP3 player. haih. some of the crazy stuffs...

jimo-fimo-finding-nemo...

Someone once told me that you have to choose
what you win or lose, you can't have everything
~Happy~

oh wells