in the last few hours of 2008

Cyber cafe. 15 minutes to go.
too much has happened.
esp in the final two weeks of 2008.
spent my christmas eve in hospital with my grandma.
thank God she's fine now.
threw the big envelope away. dumped it in a huge garbage bin. finally.
have been working in my grandpa's shop. almost everyday. tired. haha. really.
go check out this and this. =)

changes. i need some of it.

****

Goodbye 2008

Hello 2009!

reflection? wah, got so much to reflect upon wei....

my holidays..

another week gone.

Pangkor-Sitiawan trip with RC was fun!

all thanx CM for bringing us here and there! =)
kayaked to the island opposite of teluk nipah.

climbed up and down some giant rocks.

fishes and crabs and many chitons.

drove around pangkor island. CM and me -- thought RC how to drive a manual car. i think it was fun coz we were kind of like shouting at her... "change gear..!!!" "2nd gear NOW!!!"....

had fun going around sitiawan.

watched CM and RC trying to fly a kite.

pics??

haha.. soon soon...

i'm lazy to put my thoughts into proper sentences.

=p

that's what you said and what i heard.

i am now in McD. cold. rainy night. wifi.
thoughts keep popping out.
i have been working as waitress since i came back to ipoh.

nothing new.

hectic. stressful. frustrating. enough to turn on my machine gun and lash on every single driver on the road.

i am at the verge of giving up hope on many things. and many people.
sometimes, those situations really make no sense. at all.

but i realised that i was looking at things in my own perspectives.
nothing new.

i couldn't understand
well, they are a bunch of bad people. real bad people.
that's all i need to know.

i wonder how God can work in those situations.
i wonder what's in Abraham's mind N years ago when God called him..
Abraham. Abraham. Abraham.
i wonder what's in my mind. now.

*****

But now, O Jacob, listen to the Lord who created you.

O Israel, the one who formed you says,

“Do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you.

I have called you by name; you are mine.

When you go through deep waters,

I will be with you.

When you go through rivers of difficulty,

you will not drown.

When you walk through the fire of oppression,

you will not be burned up;

the flames will not consume you.

For I am the Lord, your God,

the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.

I gave Egypt as a ransom for your freedom;

I gave Ethiopia and Seba in your place.

Others were given in exchange for you.

I traded their lives for yours

because you are precious to me.

You are honored, and I love you.

Isa 43:1-4

i need time.

i need you.

the hills are alive

the bus rides.

passed by the camp site that always

brings back the super duper nice homey memories.

THE Camp in Cameron Highlands.

Good. I had a great time there.

got serious stuff. got nonsense crazy stuff.

wrestled with the rachel..

and she pushed me into a puddle of dirty water at the road side.

bed climbing. bed sharing *for a while*

rained everyday in CH.

ran in the rain to hunt for treasure.

all wet. so did my dear nike shoes and so now i can go jogging in the rain.

coffee in the morning.

T-Cafe.

ha.. too much to tell.

lost for words. thanks for the great time there!

=)

i miss you..

drifting

A thousand times I've seen you standing
Gravity like lunar landing
You make me want to run till' I find you
I shut the world away from here
I drift to you, you're all I hear
As everything we know fades to black

Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending

I never thought that I
Had anymore to give
You're pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
But love remains the same

I find a place where we escape
Take you with me for the space
The city buzz sounds just like a fridge
I walk the streets through seven bars
I have to find just where you are
The faces seem to blur
They're all the same

So much more to say
So much to be done
Don't you trick me out
We shall overcome
It's all left still to play

We should've had the sun
Could have been inside
Instead we're over here

~Love Remains the Same, Gavin Rossdale~