Fair

... ain't what we really need.

it's another week.

If I could I would pick up the pieces of your broken heart
And put it back together
And I would, I would hold you in my arms until the hurting stops
And stay right here forever
~Ain't Got You, Kevin Michael~

**

I'm slowly giving up. Giving up vs getting over.
They are two different things. I just hope that all this can come to an end.

**
it's another week.
=)

rant!!!!

I tell you...
I have never felt
so DEFEATED
by lab reports
darn it!!
I don't know to how to do..
can't even find the relevant stuff...
*minus the fact that i didn't search in the library, i'm lazy*
=(

Yesterday was a real torture. I spent the whole day on lab reports and the assignment. Woke up. Coffee. Stuck on the chair, in front of the laptop. Click here and there. Opened this website and that website and filled my day with plant hormones. More auxin. More cytokinin. More gibberellins. More ethylene. More abscisic acid. More!!!!!!! Argh!!! And I ended my day with the list of research on plant hormones done in 2008. All this was worse than sitting at my little corner to study for the whole day during exam period!

Well, of course, there were some interesting stuff which happened in between and at least it made me awake and made my day more interesting... hehe...
If not, argh....

And now, I am still stuck with lab reports... thinking how to go about it.. due this Wed and I got a test on the same day. *sei larrrr.....*

And why is the weather so darn hot??!!! *sheeesssh*

a quick one (not so quick pun)..

.. before i am drowned in the sea of lab reports with a lot of graphs and stuff and the 4000 words assignment on plant hormones and their commercial use. Thank God it became 4000.. haiyoooo...

Hehe... the past two and a half day was cekap giler!! I was on a MISSION.. to send hugs and flowers to AJ@Panjang@stubborn donkey@monkey.. and I had a great time in Banting... although we didn't do much.. noooo.. we did quite a lot of things la.. *We're quite productive right?* hehe.. =)

To start off, it was a smooth trip. To and fro. I didn't need to wait for a very long time before the bus came. After N times of looping the same 4 songs, the bus finally reached Telok Datok. After taking a few left right turns.. within 10 minutes.. taaa daaa... *yeah, that's the coconut tree..!* I was already walking beside Panjang's house. Hehe..

The adventure continued with watching movies, talk talk laugh laugh.. online and food.. ahh.. i tell you... super nice food.. curry chicken.. spaghetti...!!! Oh my gosh... they taste superb i tell you.. hehe.. We had spaghetti for dinner, supper and lunch.. haha.. Wonderful!! Besides food ar... ya.. i did some parts of my lab reports there la.. and in the end i decided not to waste my time on lab reports..! *i am there for a mission eh* hehe.. ok lar, it's more than hugs and flowers mah.. =)

Time flies.. today is Saturday... and I have to leave Banting and head back to PJ by 2..
*did i hear you saying "awwww......"*
After an hour plus of bus ride... Here comes the buildings i am familiar with... pressed the bell..
*argh, here i am, stepping on this PJ land*
And after another short distance of bus ride.. here comes another building i am super familiar with... pressed the bell..
*imagine me carrying my two bags, standing in front of MC with a 'lost' face...*
and after some walking.. sigh... i opened into the tiny room i called 'my little corner'... and now, my lab reports and the 4K words.. arghhhh!!!!! *_fainted_*

Well.. as a conclusion.. I really enjoyed myself there!! hehehe...

and dengan bangganya....

MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!!
=)

there's so much to say...

Words cannot explain the thoughts on my mind...
I am bad in expressing myself. Whatever lar...
The walk from APM to HEP brings back so much fond memories...

I am getting old...

Stories. A front. Dust of disappointment... and so much more...

**
Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed,
for his compassions never fail.
They are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
Lamentations 3:22-23

**
We live each day by the grace of God
**

And
I am truly thankful
that we are still alive.

evening walk

after two years of staying in where I am staying now..
after being advised by KC for many many times that I should go out of my tiny room and berjalan-jalan in campus to release my stress and whatever sampah-sarap in me..

finally I had my super cool evening walk together with Rachel Babe in campus.. talked talked laughed laughed.. all the way to the tasik, to the padang.. walked round the tasik.. down the slope.. watched ppl playing basketball, football.. *i also want to play!!!*.. watched ppl kayaking... =)

I am a lazy bum who doesn't really like to jog. so we just jogged a bit and the rest of the time, we walked.

The best thing.. we walked all the way for good food in Sri Paandi!!!

Talking about exercising and burning fat huh... sigh...

books. and. life.

Sem khas..
I am supposed to finish reading these books by the end of it...

1. Daddy-Long-Legs *i read the first page long long long time ago*
2. Finding Friendship with God *i dunno where i stopped d...*
3. Do They Hear You When You Cry *stopped at page 25*
4. The Legacy of Jesus *i think i stopped half way some time ago*
5. The Difficult Doctrine of the Love of God *one quarter more to go*

Besides that... study for geology, plant physiology, .....
I only have 3 weeks left before ending my sem khas!!
and 4 weeks left before going into my final year!!

Haiyoooooo....

***
good thing about sem khas
i got a lot of time to think
to look back at things that happened
as well as things i allowed to happen
half a year has gone
and i have wasted much time
really.
i can't afford to do so anymore.
***

i'm a sinner saved by grace.

randomz

Slept for more than 9 hours.
woke up with a spring on my feet. Jump, Jiahui! I had a big cup of coffee. bummed around online for the whole morning instead of studying for geology test which is on next tuesday.
Lab reports? Argh.. they are piling up and i haven't started at all. not even a line or an alphabet. Terrible me. I am procrastinating.
Had lunch with Rachael the Wong. Nice food. We explored Pusat Kebudayaan while waiting for the HEP to open. Erm, gotta go HEP again on Monday. Never mind. I have gotten used to it. I remembered those days in HEP office. And again, how time flies. =)

And now, back in my room. and i am still bumming online.. sheeeesssssssh...

Stupid ants. Stupid cockroach. I have been busy killing ants that are roaming around on my table. I have tissue papers on both sides of my laptop.. ever ready to kill any ants I spotted roaming around.. First thing of the day, is to inspect my table and mug to see if there's any ant. Darn ants. Go away before I bring in the ant killer powder from China. =)

You know what... On tuesday morning, 6 something, still dark, and only the toilet light was on.. roomie's sound asleep.. J was half awake... climbed down from her double decker.. left foot landed first.. and ..

"Phrekk..."

J: eeeww... why felt like soft soft wan.. what the heck is that?

She skipped a few steps, turned back and.. to her horror.. she saw a black thing struggling to move... *by this time, she's already fully awake, darn it.*

J: Darn it! Shuckz! It is a cockroach!!! And I stepped on the cockroach!!! Arrrghhhhhhh, my foot!! My left foot!!!

So, to make sure that the cockroach has no chance of survival AT ALL *i repeat, AT ALL*, J quickly grabbed her BUM shoes and hit it hard on the darn cockroach. Haha...

J: Padan muka!! I mopped the floor the night before and you came and dirtied my floor! Now I have to mop again. Stupid cockroach, serve you right!

And so, I mopped the floor again at 6 something in the morning. Not to forget, I had to scrub my left foot and hands. Climbed back to my bed and still had the feeling that soft thing is stuck to my foot.

All these adventures with ants and cockroaches.. i have too many to recount. =)

it's there.

After the storm
there's a pale silver lining

3rd June 2008

i dunno

i dunno why..
my mind just refuses to pay attention during lectures..
it's like.. it will automatically shut down once i stepped into the lecture hall..
and the lecturer will sound like he/she is singing some lullaby.. there goes my few hours every Mon to Wed..

i don't want plant physiology. i don't want geology. all i want is sleepology and *dot dot dot*

thought of going for badminton this evening to hit the shuttlecock giler giler kuat until it rosak or until the strings snap and release whatever that's in me but ended up eating like gluttons in Ming Tien. roasted pork. char siew. shark's fin noodle. grill fish. honey dew juice. turning frustrations into feasting. bring me for futsal. bring me for basketball. bring me for tennis. bring me for squash!

i guess i need something or someone to help me to sort out my thoughts.
i am just running round and round and round, trying to avoid that point.

All i really need is You.