why do i always encounter such things?

such bad hygiene things, i would say.
shifted to another unit on friday after school.
the moment i saw the toilet.. i almost fainted.
the moment i saw the ceiling fan in my room.. i almost fainted twice.
can't help but wondering where these people come from and at the same time amazed at their high tolerance level towards bad hygiene stuff.

it's unbelievable!

i should have taken pictures before cleaning the stuff...
i am lost for words to describe how bad the toilet WAS. it was real bad. very bad. white tiles became yellowish and you will puke badly the moment you saw the toilet bowl. stains everywhere. my oh my... *but after tonnes of hard work, now it's pretty 'standard'.*

the ceiling fan, it's supposed to be white or at least slightly yellowish, kan..? i tell you, it's my first time seeing a black fan... black because it was covered with dust! OMG teruk-teruk! huge caterpillar-liked dust wool came falling down when i wiped the fan.. eeeeeewwww..

so basically i spent the whole friday afternoon cleaning the toilet and my room. by dinner time, i was already half dead and still got cell to attend. came back after cell, decided to stay up to online. *it's a looong story, so just let it be*
saturday - repeated the same routine as friday afternoon until it's time for lunch and church.

oh wells, the place isn't that bad. bearable for me to stay there for two months. garh! at least it has a kitchen, a living room, a bedroom, a toilet.. and therefore more place for me to be a maid. :p

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on the other not so happy happy side.
i felt like a loser. haih. wondering why i have to go through this again and again and again. must i dream and always see your face? two more months... sigh :|

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on the happy happy side, i received messages from different people wishing me Happy Teachers' Day. It feels weird. but it's kind of fun. :p
and i got belanja-ed makan muffin by my F1 girls ;)

nice!

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today is thursday!

coming to the end of second week.. ;)

F1 mathematics - did some revision with them for two weeks which is equal to 6 hours of lesson and finally it's over *i quite enjoyed it by the way*. and next week is their exams. have to keep reminding them not to make careless mistakes and open their eyes besar-besar when they sit for the papers. they are a bunch of cute kids who kept pestering me to add them in FB which obviously i won't for the time being. told them i will give them a surprise at the end of my teaching practice if they got an A for the maths paper and they said "Yeah..!!"
and a moment after that they pleaded with their 'oh-look-at-us-a-poor-thing-face' saying...

"Teacher, no stationery, pleeeeaaaaase......"

"haha, i'll think about it.."

"Teachhhhhhheeerrrrrr....."

"alright, it's time. thank you, class..."

"Thaaaaank yooooouuuu Teeeeaaacherrrrr....."

had only 6 lessons with them and they are going make my voice crack. ;)
lesson plans for the week before school hols ~ still cracking my head thinking and daydreaming about it but it's almost done.

F4 biology - gee, lesson plan 26th may, done.
thinking about those experiments thingy.. sheessshh....
this gives me more tension than anything else ... garh.

have been reminding myself not to lose focus and not to fall back into the emo-jimo-fimo-limo cycle. the best is yet to come and therefore stop messing with the wrong people.

alright, it's time to get back to work ;)

i think i am starting to like my job which some time ago i didn't really like or bother to like.

;)

desire. consolation.

Well, this is our last embrace,
Must I dream and always see your face?
Why can't we overcome this wall?
maybe it's just because I didn't know you at all.

~The Last Goodbye, Scarlett J.~

sleep debt.

i was basically zombie-ing around the whole day.
woke up at 10. marked the books. 1pm lunch at Tappers. church and stuff. came back to finish marking the books. bread and milo for dinner/supper.

i am trying to pay off the sleep debt, i guess.

time.

with God all things are possible.
Matt 19:26

this is the first thing that caught my attention 7 years ago.

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timing.
perhaps it was a wrong timing.
disappointed i am
but i don't want to make things worse.

**
first week in school.
it was cool
and
somewhat *awesome*
geo challenge is a useful tool to be used during relief classes.

**
shifted out from 3rd.
the jimoness is indescribable.
i felt that i have just moved in to 3rd not long ago and now i have to move out.
packed. unpacked. packed. unpacked.

**

no regrets.

it was fun.

Geo Challenge has proven its usefulness
;)

that's what happened to your brain when you have played it for 287 times.

taking a short break.

two days in school and it has been kind of fun. God surprised me. ;)
challenges. i see more of it coming. garh.
lack of sleep. have been surviving on adrenaline rush. and that's not soooo good. :p
in dying need of some lullaby or something to make me fall asleep at night more easily.

thinking of a blog hiatus? haha. quite unlikely to happen, kan?

;)

***
I have never walked on water
Felt the waves beneath my feet
But at Your word Lord
I'll receive Your faith to walk on oceans deep
And I remember how You found me
In that very same place
All my failings surely would have drowned me
Still You made a way

You are my freedom
Jesus You're the reason
I'm kneeling again at Your throne
Where would I be without You
Here in my life
Here in my life

You have said that all the heavens
Sing for joy at one who finds the
Way to freedom truth of Jesus
Brought from death into this life
And I remember how You saw me
Through the eyes of Your grace
And though the price was Your beloved for me
Still You made a way

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excited? nervous?

i'll be heading to school

in less than 9 hours.
;)

a good friend said:

hey, don't get so stressed.
in all your ways ACKNOWLEDGE God,
and He will make your paths straight.

then my mum said:

mum: wah, you very 'gan cheong' (translate: nervous) ar?
me: of coz 'gan cheong' (translate: nervous like sh*t) la.....!

it was funny how my mum in her laughing-teasing tone then told me "mou gan cheong.. mou gan cheong (translate: don't be nervous) and go sleep early....."

sheesh... still got mood to blog.. garhh...

i was restless and i played many rounds of pacman to destress myself. then i figured out that i should go read the bible instead. :p

PJK has been preaching about "Not by might nor by power, but by the Spirit of God". what a reminder i get week after week that it's not by my might or power or wisdom or understanding.. but by the Spirit of God going before me and with me... hmmmmmm...

and....

"You spent 4 years studying to be a teacher. you BE a teacher," babe*.
;p

enough said.

i am done with examzzz!!!!

in KPS Auditorium, i couldn't wait til the clock strikes 10.30am. yeah, finally got rid of my last bio paper in uni. an extremely unexciting subject. argh!!

in DTC, the clock was ticking. 1.10pm. 1.15pm. 1.25pm. 1.28pm. and yes~~~!! 1.30pm! and i got rid of the Geografi pelancongan which is the most boring subject i have taken in my entire uni life. :p and thank God the only pen i have didn't fail on me coz' it was dying the moment i wrote the first sentence and there were 3 essays waiting for me to write. haha. blame me for not testing the pens or bringing extra pens. i didn't know that all the 3 pens i brought were memang dying d... sheeesh....

went to watch He's Just Not That Into You. nice movie. :p

an awesome!!! and crazy!!! night celebrating LiErn's birthday. ;)

my days in A214 is running out... sigh.

counting down to the days when i have to wake up early and work from 7.30 til 2, monday til friday; may or may not have co-curricular activities; may or may not need to work on saturdays; may or may not be involved in the musical production; definitely will be working my sssss off to prepare the lesson planssssss; thinking how to be more student-centered... and so on and so forth... argh...

i think i should go get some sleep ... ;)

i am trying to psycho myself that i am fine. i really am. fine.