my heart

i am feeling kind of frustrated.
over a lot of things.

i am trying re-process and sort out all the things that i saw and heard in just one and a half day.

i have my hermit the crab with me, after a nice walk along the beach.

why do things have to be so complicated?

disillusions.

i can't see myself doing this kind of thing for years.

i felt i was being psycho-ed. i somehow felt that our personality is kind of similar. it's quite tempting to stay in the inner circle because you get the inside stories first hand. but i also saw how people are stepping on each other just to get ahead of them. they might not be wrong. it boils down to the survival of the fittest.

i don't like it.

... to be continued