i'll make it without you.

One more week. And i will be back in the other side of my world.

i am really excited about it. ;)
i have been counting down the days since i left Ipoh after the mid year school break.

Day after day. Week after week. month after month.

soon, it will be the end of my first year teaching in this school. i wished i could love this job.

*roar*

i have to rush the bio syllabus. oh crap.

science. one more month to PMR.

maths? whatever.

the above two are pictures of Parkcity Everly Hotel in Miri.
i was truly glad that i have the whole room to myself.
the meetings finally ended on Wednesday morning.
the whole experience is like
'going for a holiday and coming back with a whole load of information and inside stories'.
and some insights on 'dog-eat-dog world'.

the beach. i have a thing for beaches. maybe because there's none in ipoh.
people tend to appreciate less the things they have. people tend to take things for granted.

i guess that answers the question
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i love you.

Why is love intensified by absence?

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i wished i could stop ignoring that my heart is mourning.
sometimes i just felt like running away and hide at some places
and start a new life.
i know it's too drama.
but i seriously couldn't continue to reconsider and reconsider and reconsider.
i might one day lose my sanity.

i am still trying to figure out what Hermit likes to eat.
It doesn't like the soggy rice. i am drying out some and see if it likes it.
the online article says hermit crab eats anything.

i am trying to be perfect although you said i don't need to be and i can never be.
i am trying not to let you down although you said i don't have to do that.

something sparks off our fall from grace.
stop pretending it's not ending.