silence.

i always thought it was fun. i still remember how it's like. the awkwardness and not knowing what to talk about and trying to find a common topic. in fact, i kinda liked it just like that. just being there with one another. quiet and yet you know that you are safe. you are protected. nothing will go wrong. even if anything went wrong, you know that you are not alone.

i always thought it was fun. until now.

i hate that i can't make myself to kick you out of my life. yes, it's you.

the silence that was once interesting and heart-warming has become a thing that irritates me and it's slowly eating me away...

i hate you.