Dreams

I found this in PostSecret this morning. It says, "Dreams. Please don't let me forget everything. I don't want to forget."

And later in the afternoon, someone threw me a question. "So, what is your dream? You know, dreams as in ambitions, goals and etc."

How to answer this type of questions? Enlighten me, will you? What kind of dreams are we referring to? Personal dreams? Selfish dreams? Erm, 'holy' dreams? Childhood dreams? Well, I guess the questions will be much easier to answer if it's worded like this...

"What are your childhood dreams yeah?"

Then, people will start giving you all sorts of standard textbook answers. Just ask a young boy or a young girl who is still schooling and see for yourself. Doctor. Nurse. Lawyer. Teacher. Policeman. Soldier. Air stewardess. Well, those choices may be socially constructed and are gender-biased. I am skipping that point(again). Whatever it may be, you will get a list of standard answers because that's what the adults are telling the kids nowadays(oh, not really nowadays. It has been like that all this while) directly and indirectly. I am not saying that it is wrong. But the main point behind all these is.. To be successful, you have to dream big. The bigger the better. The higher you go the better! People have been telling me this. Has anyone told you this before? Don't tell me 'No', k?

When you get older, you may start wondering..

"What on earth am I here for?"

"Is my dream(s) really that important in comparison to what God has for me and what He has called me to?"

Well, and not to leave this out. We start to dream for our family. Our country. I don't need to say much about this. I felt that sometimes and at certain situations, dreams for the family and dreams for the country are kind of like going against each other, esp when things are not going well in the country(don't tell me this is an understatement, please), and when the dreams you have for your country is nowhere near realization. I wonder if you could understand what I am trying to say here. Well, never mind. Anyway...

For the sake of your family, will you choose to leave the country for a better life?

Or will you continue to stay, believing that God is going to provide and take care of you and your family as you try to do your part in making the dreams you have for your country come through?

It's not easy. It is never meant to be easy. Some of us are very angry with things that are going on in the society, I know. But what are we going to do? Continue to lament and complain? I don't know what I can do with all the Education and Gender theories, Biology, Mathematics, and a bit of knowledge on Social Sciences which I have learned through the 2 and a half years of university life. But I just pray and hope that I can really put them into practice even though I may not fully believe in some of those theories. Making a change in school when I go out later? Walk the talk? It all starts with me. My heart. Let not the words I speak and teach be at odd with what I feel in my heart and the way I live my life.

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Wait. Just Wait.
The greatest dream is perfected in the loving hand of God. A deliberate, expectant pause is all the invitation God needs to encourage us on... or check our spirits, preventing us from making the worst of mistakes. So take a deep breath, listen expectantly, and step out with boldness!

I wait.
Dear Lord, Thy ways
Are past finding out,
Thy love too high.
O hold me still
Beneath Thy shadow.
It is enough that Thou
Lift up the light
Of Thy countenance.
I wait --
Because I am commanded
So to do. My mind
Is filled with wonderings.
My soul asks "Why?"
But then the quiet word,
"Wait thou only
Upon God."
And so, not even for the light
To show a step ahead,
But for Thee, dear Lord,
I wait.
-Elisabeth Elliot-

taken from Bright Hope for Your Future, Heidi S. Hess

Well. What is(are) your dream(s) then?