you left. i didn't come back.

imagine this

I am so deeply, deeply, deeply sorry for hurting you so much. I am so sorry because I'm so in love with you, and I will spend the rest of my life telling you that. I'll apologize to you every day if that's what you need, but, ... please, please don't walk away again. I came across the world to be with you....

You had to fly across the world to get to me, Arizona, because you flew a whole world away without ever looking back.
You just left.

And this might be news to you — no, I think it kinda is — but you're not the only one in this relationship.

There are two of us, and you came back today
but I didn't.

look at the things we did in the name of love.

we are all selfish beings.

***

i was thinking to give my best shot this year.. for whatever remaining months left in this place. believe me, i really wanted to. but the look on some of their faces really repulsed me. they will come picking up crumbs from your table when the exams is near - asking for forgiveness, asking you to bless them and the whatever knowledge they gained from/through you. vanity. to me, it's just a show.