that's what you said and what i heard.

i am now in McD. cold. rainy night. wifi.
thoughts keep popping out.
i have been working as waitress since i came back to ipoh.

nothing new.

hectic. stressful. frustrating. enough to turn on my machine gun and lash on every single driver on the road.

i am at the verge of giving up hope on many things. and many people.
sometimes, those situations really make no sense. at all.

but i realised that i was looking at things in my own perspectives.
nothing new.

i couldn't understand
well, they are a bunch of bad people. real bad people.
that's all i need to know.

i wonder how God can work in those situations.
i wonder what's in Abraham's mind N years ago when God called him..
Abraham. Abraham. Abraham.
i wonder what's in my mind. now.

*****

But now, O Jacob, listen to the Lord who created you.

O Israel, the one who formed you says,

“Do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you.

I have called you by name; you are mine.

When you go through deep waters,

I will be with you.

When you go through rivers of difficulty,

you will not drown.

When you walk through the fire of oppression,

you will not be burned up;

the flames will not consume you.

For I am the Lord, your God,

the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.

I gave Egypt as a ransom for your freedom;

I gave Ethiopia and Seba in your place.

Others were given in exchange for you.

I traded their lives for yours

because you are precious to me.

You are honored, and I love you.

Isa 43:1-4

i need time.

i need you.