in that little corner of her heart and life

Some things happened which cause her to realise that she rarely walks by faith regarding issues of great concern. It seems that when the burdens get heavy, she tries to carry them on her own. She frets and worries. She imagines the worst case scenario. She tries to determine what she can do to remedy the problem. She wastes time wishing things were different. When what she should be doing is giving God the opportunity to do His work. Worrying will not change a thing, but faith can change everything.

For we walk by faith, not by sight.
2 Corinthians 5:7

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open heart. open home. open ear.

Martha - fussing far too much and getting herself worked up over nothing. Mary - choosing one thing that is essential, one thing that worth being concerned about ~ the main course which will not be taken from her. Jesus - free in affirming, loving Martha and Mary the same. Back to this girl, she cares too much about details even though at times she does try to overlook them coz she doesn't want to get too stressed up. Neh..

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What a friend said about her 2 years ago is true -- that she built a wall which not many can break down and get through. I guess it's something like the semi permeable membrane of our cells. It's selective. It has special channels for organic and inorganic materials to go through it. Some channels are gated, they open/close when stimulated. Some channels only open to molecules with certain molecular size. Some molecules pass through the membrane passively without using energy while some need ATP to do so.

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She thought she is good in adapting to changes. No. She's just ignoring those changes until it gets to her nerves. Her flexibility and spontaneity sucks. She always ask herself why can't she be less rigid, or maybe less organized, giving herself more space to do something that springs out from nowhere, allowing herself to experience something different. Oh well...

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Ha... a night of bible study and a simple afternoon of getting together in her small little room which she called 'home' brought so many things to her mind..