i don't care

I woke up as early as usual. Barely had 5 hours of sleep. What the heck! I am supposed to get some real nice sleep until I have to start studying again for my last paper. But here I am, typing another post. A heavy head. An empty mug. Emptied nescafe packet. Endless looping of the same few songs. Messy table. Empty bottles of Brands. Going through the same old motion day after day. I don't mind doing that. I don't mind being stuck in my room and doing the same old stuff again and again. Do you call this contentment or complacent or simply being indifferent and chose to stay in my own lala world called J's Little Corner and daydream about this and that, waiting for this and that, get upset or happy over this and that, and then call it a day? The same stack of notes. Reading them again and again. And reproducing them in the answer scripts. Geology paper is the best example. Education papers too. What's wrong with that? You learn something during the process anyway. It has always been like that and I have always been doing that. Complain or not to complain? I have chosen to keep quiet all this while. Just shut up and comply to the system since you have no way of escaping and since what you wanted all this while is good grades and nothing but good grades. Do whatever is required of you as long as it does no harm (at least i'm ok). Get over all this crazy nonsense and be done with it. Come out and teach the kids the same thing. Let the cycle repeat itself. It's not that I have a choice over what I am doing right now. Of course, given a choice or opportunities or whatsoever, who would want to be stuck in such a state where you are neither here nor there? Sometimes I do feel that grass is greener on the other side. I want that stupid patch of greener grass, too! Compare. Then contrast. And then complain. What's the point? Anyway, wasn't I complaining now? What the crap!

Why am I not doing anything about it? Am I taking things for granted? I don't know.

Ask not what your country can do for you - ask what you can do for your country

I find this quote rather amusing. Don't ask me why.

I don't know why this morning I woke up with such, hmm, funny angst in my heart. I want things to stay as how they are but at the same time I do hope that they don't have to be that way. Sigh. Another confused lot in action.